BaconiteJoin Date: 2010-09-13
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I need to tell you something, I don’t know if you’ll ever talk to me again after I tell you this. I didn’t tell you this for a very long time, I feel very protective of you, I don’t know why, I just feel that way. I’ve been feeling this way since 7th grade. I know this is awkward but I fear for you that you might get hurt. I can’t make decisions for you, but I am mourning inside for you, I don’t want you to feel pain or sadness.
I hope this isn’t making you feel awkward, but I’m not sure you thought of the future. I don’t think you want to be living in a small house having arguments every few days. I would think you would want to live a happy life full of joys, not being abused or treated wrong by a sexist man.
I know I am younger than you, but we are both young, you might not understand some of the words I am saying now, but it’s for the best that I am telling you this.
Please tread carefully where you go, I want to protect, be there for you in background watching for evil-doers,
I never told you this in 7th grade because you did not know of me, you were also not old enough to understand, I don’t know if I’ll be ever be able to comfort or help you face to face, but I will do anything to see that you have a blessed life. I was just too shy back then, now I have nothing to lose because of recent events. Please don’t get hurt, I would hate to see your face with a broken heart. I remember I saw you clutching your belly, you were in pain I thought. I cried the period after that. I was too shy to help or ask you what was going on. I thought you might think I was weird, a typical asian kid telling you that he wanted to watch out for you and protect you. You would just repulse me and look down at me. I’ve been waiting for a better time to tell you :).
I cried because I felt guilty that I couldn’t do anything for your. The reason you don’t see me cry much is because I cry over things would think I wouldn’t cry for. Pains will go away, wounds heal, tears dry up, it’s not the outside that shows the story, it’s the inside, the heart is where all the pain goes to. It’s the deeper things side broken that hurt the most. I wish not this upon you. I want you to have a easier life, I’m assuming it was/is hard for you.
From now I want to protect, be your silent guardian angel. Whatever you say and do will never stop me from defending you, Ever. Like I said, I do not wish to see you hurting or in pain.
Please stay safe, my life is dedicated to your welfare and wellbeing, if I shall fail, I have no reason to continue living for I have failed my mission to protect you.
If you ever need help, remember I always want to help you the best I can. If I don’t respond right away, I’ll always return those calls. I’m not just talking about now, I’m talking about the future.When we grow up, if evil-doers wish harm upon you, they will feel unimaginable pain. I can’t go back on my words, a man mustn't say words from his mouth and not mean what he says. I have to keep my word whatever the cost. I’ll never ignore you in your times of sadness. One must never take back what he said.
I may die soon, or I am die later, that’s why I’m telling you all this. Just in case. I thought you should know. I’ll understand if you don’t want to talk to me anymore. Please stay safe, my life is dedicated to your welfare and wellbeing, if I shall fail, I have no reason to continue living for I have failed my mission to protect you." |