I’ve thought more on what I would like to do with WCoR, and despite all of my efforts, it’s not going to be enough. The more I think of it, the more I realize its a massive waste of my own time and effort to try and help a community that would rather put you down. I’ve talked to some other people I trust and they agreed, that there’s just no point to it anymore, the game isn’t the same as it was seven years ago, people grew up, changed, etc., and would rather live in the past. Trying to lead WCoR has become more of a liability than a beneficiary, putting in so much time and money for it to have no payoff, kind of like gambling with a blindfold on sometimes.
I regret the decision I made with CCS, mostly because I was trying to give them what they wanted so they would say as some sort of allied organization to us, I didn’t want to break ties because we couldn’t come to an agreement. Development wise, WCoR is done for, we don’t have the money nor developers to pay or ones that are willing to help some random organization help a bunch of other random clans. I can understand people not wanting to work for free, but even when I do offer money, its still slow and never gets done. I miss having ‘WCoR devs’, like we did with PixieLover and Davekillerish, I miss those days when we had the Ro-war and it was me and Steamsport working together to try and get things done, with the occasional argument with Dave or whoever because we were all so stressed out. Those are the days I miss, and the more I think of it, the more I realize I’m not the type of person to ‘lead’, I’d rather be the close second, the follower of a more level-headed Leader.
I will admit, sometimes the toxic ones get to me, I would never allow someone that attacks another personally or causes drama to be associated with WCoR. And even though I try to do the right thing and get rid of them, I still get called out for being biased or people try to ruin our reputation because they care so much of a rank, rather than the people itself.
Plus starting soon, I’ll be working two jobs to hopefully pay for college, or classes I’m looking to take, and the new Mass Effect is coming out so, yeah I’m going to be pretty busy with all that. I just want my former staff to know I care about them as people, and I really wanted this to work out, but clearly I am not the right individual to be taking care of such a big project. It’s like watering a tree that doesn’t actually produce anything.
Anyway I apologize for the rant, I’ll be returning WCoR to Steamsport, the one I’ve been able to trust to confide in the most, he’s got some good things coming along so hopefully you guys can work with him.
I’ll still be around casting RGL matches here and there, while also acting as a Moderator and Marketing Director in the spare time. Hope you guys can understand my position here, as I don’t want to see WCoR shut down, but maybe prosper under strong leadership :).
Elijah
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