Hello guys!
Im here to tell you that I may or may not; quit ####### #### its not because I want to quit it so I can pursue something, or because roblox is seriously boring. No, I actually really like roblox. And i'm quite young (teen (also dont get the wrong idea that im an emo).
The reason I may or may not quit roblox is more on a serious note. I am suffering from deep depression right now, and I cant really find any help - in the outside world. But on the internet, its not looking as gloom. I actually find it really positive. The internet is my refuge, and I really love it. But, with depression getting worse with every day, I keep having suicidal thoughts. I know suicide is never the right answer, but my life is in misery so much right now that I just cant bear it any more.
I might just give up.
And a lot of my friends know about this, and they help me. I don't want to tell my family because their mostly the cause. Its not physical abuse or anything like that. Its much worse. They hurt me with words. I keep getting bombarded with words, and I can never defend myself. And my face is probably the most enduring face in the world. You can never tell whats happening if you just look at my face. I've been enduring it for so long, I cant take it anymore, so i'm going to recognize death as an option. Also, I know that my parents love#### ### everyday I feel like their love for me isn't as affectionate anymore.
I wont give up my life just yet though. I still feel like I have a legacy to fulfill, and mostly on roblox, where I can express my ideas. I feel important (not in a selfish way), and that I need to do something that might help the world, and mostly, me.
So, with that said guys, I hope you guys have better days than I do, and ill always be here, with you guys.
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