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The person who abused me was not the type of person that one would expect to do that kind of thing. He wasn't a bad person. He had probably never been in trouble for anything in his entire life, and besides that, he was extremely smart. So smart, in fact, that at the time it happened he was on track to become the next VAK Captain. I was a rank below him, and I knew him very well from the academy. He had always been very kind to me, and I had developed a crush on him when I became part of the academy.
I ran into him one night at a private cadet meeting, and since I knew him so well, I had no trouble approaching him. We hung out for most of the night, and things seemed to be nice. He got me drinks a few times and we talked for a while. After that, I have very limited memory of what happened to me. I remember enough to know that I protested. Actually, I practically begged. My only clear memory after that was that at one point I tried to crawl away, but fell, and he picked me up off the ground and threw me back on top of the bed. I woke up the next day, still nekked and in terrible pain, with bruises on my arms and wrists.
The details came later, from a mutual friend of both me and him. He told me that he didn't agree with what happened and offered to tell me everything that he was told about it. I learned that no candahm was used, which was extremely upsetting. Worst of all, I learned that 2-3 guys watched the entire thing without interfering, because, well, he was their friend and they were afraid to mess with him. This was so upsetting to me. Not only because I lost my varjanity against my own volition, while others watched, but also because any of them could have easily stopped it, and none of them did.
After that night, I couldn't bring myself to tell anyone. Every time I thought about it, the shame and embarrassment that came over me were enough to make me immediately put it out of my mind. I just wanted to forget. As time passed, I basically did. I tried to think about it as little as possible and fill my time with normal Vaktovian things. Now, almost 2 years have passed. As of recently, I've found myself thinking about it more and more often. I am becoming more and more depressed and anxious and afraid. I have withdrawn myself from my own emotions for so long that I don't know how to deal with them anymore. I am in more pain now than ever, and I don't know how to cope with it. Nothing I try helps. I even quit the academy to think about it. I just can't understand what I did to deserve it. Even with so much time between that night and now, I still feel violated and sick, and afraid that it will happen to me again.
Thank you for reading my story and please know that if you are ever in the position to help someone that was in my place, do it. Do it even if the person attacking them is a friend. You will save someone from feeling worthless and ashamed and afraid for the rest of their life.
shake shake shake senora shake 11 times work work work senora back in 2 my right and bababa daa |
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guys i need help11111
shake shake shake senora shake 11 times work work work senora back in 2 my right and bababa daa |
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you guys r stupid
shake shake shake senora shake 11 times work work work senora back in 2 my right and bababa daa |
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The person who abused me was not the type of person that one would expect to do that kind of thing. He wasn't a bad person. He had probably never been in trouble for anything in his entire life, and besides that, he was extremely smart. So smart, in fact, that at the time it happened he was on track to become the next VAK Captain. I was a rank below him, and I knew him very well from the academy. He had always been very kind to me, and I had developed a cru##### ##m when I became part of the academy.
I ran into him one night at a private cadet meeting, and since I knew him so well, I had no trouble approaching him. We hung out for most of the night, and things seemed to be nice. He got me drinks a few times and we talked for a while. After that, I have very limited memory of what happened to me. I remember enough to know that I protested. Actually, I practically begged. My only clear memory after that was that at one point I tried to crawl away, but fell, and he picked me up off the ground and threw me back on top of the bed. I woke up the next day, still nekked and in terrible pain, with bruises on my arms and wrists.
The details came later, from a mutual friend of both me and him. He told me that he didn't agree with what happened and offered to tell me everything that he was told about it. I learned that no candahm was used, which was extremely upsetting. Worst of all, I learned that 2-3 guys watched the entire thing without interfering, because, well, he was their friend and they were afraid to mess with him. This was so upsetting to me. Not only because I lost my varjanity against my own volition, while others watched, but also because any of them could have easily stopped it, and none of them did.
After that night, I couldn't bring myself to tell anyone. Every time I thought about it, the shame and embarrassment that came over me were enough to make me immediately put it out of my mind. I just wanted to forget. As time passed, I basically did. I tried to think about it as little as possible and fill my time with normal Vaktovian things. Now, almost 2 years have passed. As of recently, I've found myself thinking about it more and more often. I am becoming more and more depressed and anxious and afraid. I have withdrawn myself from my own emotions for so long that I don't know how to deal with them anymore. I am in more pain now than ever, and I don't know how to cope with it. Nothing I try helps. I even quit the academy to think about it. I just can't understand what I did to deserve it. Even with so much time between that night and now, I still feel violated and sick, and afraid that it will happen to me again.
Thank you for reading my story and please know that if you are ever in the position to help someone that was in my place, do it. Do it even if the person attacking them is a friend. You will save someone from feeling worthless and ashamed and afraid for the rest of their life.
shake shake shake senora shake 11 times work work work senora back in 2 my right and bababa daa |
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LMAO DUDE HOW DID YOU FIND THIS |
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FidstadJoin Date: 2016-01-20
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LoC? |
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loc hasn't felt the pain i have |
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I got my ways Yoshi. But anyway, I tell you later. |
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LadyMacyJoin Date: 2015-08-10
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sometimes im very disappointed in you nitro...
sigh.
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this happened to me before :C
your homeboy chingidydong +1.5k |
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