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Hello. I am former First Encounter Assault Recon General, iRoctheworld. I have served in that position for more than two years straight, leading many of you I do not know very well. I have formed friendships that cannot be broken, and made enemies that will forever haunt me. Most of you reading this thread know me from my longtime career in that clan, however others may remember me from former clans and old friendships. It feels weird reading this on the other side of the looking glass, writing a thread I have seen written a thousand times by other people. Threads of this same type have been written by countless friends, forever abandoning the people you have worked with for several months and looking to new horizons – whether it be on this game or beyond. It also makes me a hypocrite, because I’m abandoning you all here today the same way countless other people have when writing threads like these. It’s something I never thought of, and probably never wanted to think about anyways.
To be quite honest with you all here today, I am scared. I’m scared because I've been removed from the clan I loved after so long, and I have no idea what’s going to happen next. I am not scared for myself, either. In fact, for the first time in a little while, I feel a sense of direction. The feeling is overwhelming! I’m actually scared for the clan itself - The First Encounter Assault Recon. It’s been going down a dark path for the last year. A lot of people in High Command have been talking about that, actually. They’re mainly the really old guys who don’t do much in the clan anymore. But it’s not just them saying that about the clan, too. Our clan, according to a close friend, is a lost, dying, limping dog trying to find its way. We’re looking for something that’s not there! We’re trying to find nirvana – an enlightened state of happiness – yet we’re really stuck on the real world looking for something that doesn't exist.
Yesterday evening, I was removed from the clan I loved as a result of mounting tension that’s been waiting to break loose. I was demoted because I was “warned” to keep quiet and not do anything until told. SONIC said I was warned twice (really, it was just once apparently), and I didn’t get a warning at all directly from anyone. I was forced to base it off of chat logs released by close friends of both myself and the Commander. According to several people, my demotion was based on the fact that fighting occurred between General Disav0w and I. Yet, he did not receive any consequences at all. To be quite frank with you, I believe it’s because it’s believed he contributed more than I have during the last few months. I think SONIC looked at the negatives of demoting us both, and found that the immediate negatives of demoting him were much less than mine. What hurts more is that I was demoted straight from General and lost all the titles that I’ve earned during the past few years. Demoted for something I apparently didn’t do, and for directly following the orders of the Commander and his advisors.
What hurts more is that this isn’t even the first time! A long time ago, I was demoted two ranks for absolutely nothing, according to the Commander himself. I was permanently demoted because of a suggestion by a (current) General in F.E.A.R. for being “too” strict. When SONIC found out the true reason, he immediately re-promoted me and apologized. This time, however, it’s someone else behind it – General Disav0w.
The people in our clan do not understand the type of person Disav0w is. He just wants me gone, and has done anything in his power to make it so. He holds a grudge over me because I “abused” and “ruined” his own division (I was given co-leadership by the Commander, working alongside LordNobody. I had complete authority over anything and everything that occurred in the division). Disav0w disagreed with me, and refused to do anything in the division. Since then, Disav0w and I have been at odds with each other. He resulted to spreading lies to low ranks, which has resulted in a wrong picture being painted of me. Many of you heard things that are simply not true. I 100% take responsibility for the things you heard, because it was up to me to stop them. It was MY job, and I didn’t do it well. No one else in F.E.A.R. cared to do anything, either.
The man has brought internal warfare to every part of this clan. Everyone, including the high ups, view him as a “two face” and a “threat.” There was even an internal movement to remove him. I worked with two unnamed high ranks to attempt to get him removed – but it didn’t work. There was something in the way, I just didn’t know what. Our request was denied. He denied his iCs and two Generals a demotion request for a Colonel. It’s completely asinine how that could have even happened in an administration like our own. As a result of this, the iC pushing for his demotion left our clan permanently, retiring from his position only after two months. He was fed up like I am right now.
However, most recently, there was a movement for my demotion a month ago. It stemmed from the fact that I did not like the arguments occurring from the Military Police chatroom. Turns out, Disav0w was behind the entire thing. Disav0w has recruited at least a dozen members of Salvus Guard to make it seem like the entire clan wants me gone. They sent him chat logs of me being “abusive.” Really, it’s me trying to hold the people I cherish and respect to the standards we want our clan to reach. I demoted them all to pending as a result. A little while after, I asked them to talk about what happened in attempt to salvage their career in the clan. They vocally gave it up, telling me that they can no longer be in the division. I ended up exiling most of them moments after that confirmation. However, one member did not follow suit. His name was Akadams. He discussed his differences and decided that it was inappropriate. He’s still in MP today, and is an example of the ideal soldier. I commend him for that, unlike the others.
Yesterday evening, I was demoted as a result of several people pressuring the Commander. I feel cheated, and I feel like a disgrace to the people I’m in the clan for. I failed to fight for what was right when I had the chance. I failed the people who I worked so hard for. Venezians, I ask for justice. I am going to show you all what happened in detail, and I’m going to fight for what’s right. This is far from the last time I am going to address you about this issue if it needs be. You may or may not see me back in the capacity I served, but I’m going to fight for what we believe in. I’m in this clan through thick and thin, and I’m in it for you.
Signing off for one last time.
I am First Encounter Assault Recon General,
Chief of the Military Police,
iRoctheworld.
[Comments open, not like I can hide anything anymore.]
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