Disclaimer: idc if im posting this on ot i need to write this out.. and maybe I do need some attention or something, doesn't everyone??
anyway I was feeling really depressed as the day started to begin with.
so then my only friend, the only person I truly loved and connected with (this is a big deal, since i've never really had a friend to begin with), removes me from her life.
My already depression worsened, and then I tried to die by pills but it didn't kill me, i dont think i took enough or something because i didnt even bother planning it, i was just desperate
now for two days i'm just sitting here, crying like a weakling, unsure of what I should do. I've tried doing other things but nothing's fun and I just end up feeling horrible.
has any ot'ers went through this or something and can give advice? honestly this is probably the worst I've ever felt. |