Today, I am here to say I am greatly disappointed in myself. I feel that I am a loathsome
officer. Feeling like a I am a terrible influence to follow in the department. I'm stating this apology because lately I feel that my behavior is taking a rough turn. I feel that I am too immature, unpleasant behavior, disrespectful acts. And anything I say to try and make it better just makes me look like a complete fool of myself.
If you think I am writing this as call for attention, you are wrong. My acts make me want to be turning in my badge & uniform in. And what makes me more ashamed is that I am an MR. An MR is supposed to be respectful, responsible etc. It's clear I am showing that I have none of those attributions and every time I think about it, it makes me more depressed than ever. I am hoping I can have another chance to make-up for what I have caused/done and to start again new and fresh for an MR.
With this, I am being stricter with myself and not constantly make childish or just down-right stupid mistakes. And turn my horrendous backstory behind us all. I admit I try to act mature and responsible, and I just end up failing miserably in the aftermath. I know, I am just seen as a 7 year old kid that thinks he's better then everyone else. Again, I am sorry for what I have done and caused. I hope I can make it up to you all and put my backstory of disrespectful acts behind us all. This apology goes for the entire TRC department ad myself. Sorry if this thread is just a waste of space on the TRC wall to you all just wanted to clear what I am and try to fix it. Thank you for reading. Celaeno TRC [MR] Commander.
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