give me something to do -_-

First off, I would like to say I'm sorry - for what it may still be worth - to anyone I've hit on, or wronged in any way. I would like to ask those of you to take the time to read this. This started back in 2013, I was still a bit young (like 14..?) and confused about what I wanted to be, and I knew that cross-dressing was frowned on and unfortunately brought heavy discrimination, so I decided to fake it for my own benefit to hide from this discrimination and still have a way to be myself, who I wanted. Seemed smart at the time and for a while it was. But that didn't last long. I didn't anticipate then, that I would make friends. That among those friends I would find someone I love. That among those I would be unable to hold myself and the flirting began. I didn't expect this when it started, and I was always far too scared to say anything when I made a friend because having friends are great, and I didn't want to gross them out. So I stayed silent. I fell further in love and eventually... It grew out of my control. This is recent however.. The first real one was Ron/iPwnedYou123/CommandoJesus/Stactt/USMarines. Sweet guy, didn't deserve someone like me and always could have shot for far better. I have to thank him for a lot, though. I grew too many unexpected feelings and they were all very real, and I couldn't say no when he wanted to get together. I just couldn't because I wanted to as well. That, unfortunately, didn't work and the entire time I felt horrible because of the dark secret that I was too damn scared to tell. Then I met Edward/Uncoverloser Now listen, I know he's old - 19 - and please do believe me when I didn't want anything to do with him at first. HE was very persistent. Always hit me with 'age doesn't matter' or that his sister had been with a guy who was 30. I gave in and decided to give it a chance, but see this time I didn't want to make the same mistake I did with Ron. I told Edward the truth about me, and he seemed perfectly okay with it. It.. grew into something I didn't quite want it to (pictures) with me being the one sending (mostly feet pictures). I never requested any from him because I was afraid of his arrow, and honestly, I was stopping after the first few because I figured it was wrong and possibly encouraged him. My intentions were never bad, but what ended up happening was horrible and I apologize to him for that here and now. I hope he still kept the feet pictures, though. Then suddenly he gets angry with me, over some really silly stuff, and this whole thing starts.. Where he goes to each of my friends, starting with Ron, and moving towards my best friend - Bryant/Bman110/ProelioSeverloh. He personally ruined a few of my friendships and tried to expose me as a "child predator" (I'm really not, js). I didn't let this phase me until I lost Bryant as a friend. That damaged me on a serious scale. And Bryant... I made the most mistakes with. Every single bit of my friendship with him was very real, just the gender part... I even hit on him many times because I'm an idiot and I accept that. He matters the most to me - STILL - in my life, and I will never forgive myself for hurting you. Unfortunately, I sort of became mad at him because he went after ice cube girl (Kkkristy) To the people I've wronged personally, Bryant - I love you and that's never changing, you were the best friend I've ever had and ever will have and every day I stop myself from crying because of how badly I messed up with you. I hope that with me making this thread you can forgive me because I really want my friend back. Edward - You meant a lot to me. My feelings were always real, the relationship was real, I just wish I was real for you. I'm terribly sorry for what I put you through at the end. Ron - I admit, I was foolish. I was dumb, whatever you might call, but I am not a child predator. I made many mistakes with you, however, and I apologize for them. I have to say if anything you helped me in the end, to come up with the courage to make this thread. Aside from taking my best friend from me, you always were the better person. iiFirestorm - A world of mistakes here... But trust that I never had real feelings for you. I was honestly still salty after what you did to Alan, but I went way too far with it. Paul321321 - I know you probably think I'm horrible but look, I never felt anything for you - cause dude, I'm straight - but I didn't know what to say after I was accused of it. Clan world - yeah yeah save your breaths. You were right from the start. https://forum.roblox.com/Forum/ShowPost.aspx?PostID=206076808