actually I'm completely satisfied with my life despite coming to the realization that overall nothing matters and eventually my body will decay into the earth to become fossil fuel for the generations of humans in the future, in the unlikely event that humankind is still around by the time my decomposed body turns to useable resources.
i have found that even though everybody dies and life is ultimately pointless, i have found the zen inside myself to accept that that is the way it is, and if thats the case, i should just do whatever i want anyways because when it comes down to it in the end we're all going to die and be forgotten since the human race can't possibly last forever, and likely won't even last another 1,000 or so years.
no my life isn't "good", because "good" is subjective. but my life isn't "bad" either. my life just is. and one day it won't be and i won't be conscious to do anything at all, so since i only have a short limit of time of an average of 80 years, leaving me with 60 more, i should experience as much as i possibly can within that window. a state of hyperconsciousness if you will
people think those who display a self deprecating sense of humor or acknowledge the meaninglessness of life are depressed, but i like to think I'm just incredibly self aware. |