I was meant to die first, You were meant to mourn first
Because I was born first, Now I see you in a hurse
Everyday without you hurts, I try pulling the trigger and it never works
I remember you used to come crying to me when boys were jerks
I remember teaching you rap, I taught you to speak your first words
I taught you to be a good girl, To grow into a woman
Thought I could handle death, Truth is I couldn't
You died before I did, Truth is you shouldn't
We both should of lived full lives, Thanks to God, You wouldn't
Poison inside your blood, The news hit me in the gut
Looked up to the skies and cried "What the fxxx"
I prayed to a nixxa just for him to take you away
Now I'm bringing roses and planting them at your grave
I see the old pictures, Took me back to those days
We'd play pranks on Papa and tried to hide away
I was 10 and you were 7, We enjoyed every second
Now every second you are gone, Makes me wanna visit Heaven
I looked at your grave, Reminiscing you asking me questions
About faith, About life, About Love, About weapons
About sins, About jyn, About gang life and swap meet sessions
About God, About Jesus, About their pressence and life lessons
About our essence, About vengeance, About prison sentence
About good intentions, About bad intentions, About gang sessions
About drxgs, About love, About hugs, About life
Now I cry when I see those memories when you were alive
Now I just look up to God and keep wondering if I'll survive
It's life. |